Why haven’t I tried
To persevere To try and do the good that I could
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What would people think?
Or say?
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Don’t
You might fall sick
Just keep away
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Do your duty
To your family
Things will be
Taken care of
There are so many other
Kind souls
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Yes
The problems
Will be resolved
Through prayer
God will act
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Why does that leave me
With an empty heart?
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That little boy I could teach
But what if
I did fall sick
What would happen
To my children
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God will take care
Of that little boy
Someone else will
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Why does it leave me
With an empty heart?
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I’m a misfit I’m sure
People around me
Don’t feel
The way I do
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There are some
Who live a life
Of sacrifice
Living their life
For others
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When I see
The wealth
The intellect
God has provided
All I do
Is twiddle my thumbs
Out of fear
Of rehab
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The price of
Sanity
Is very steep
Am I doing
The right Thing
Burying my talents?
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My answer is no
Because
Of
The discontent heart
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The day will come
When I’ll be free
I would help
The maids I think
They who slog
Without a break
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No Saturdays off
Nor Sundays
Without them
Our life uncomfortable
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They day they take
A break
We question them
Couldn’t they send
Another
To their cousin’s funeral
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Their husbands drink
They beat
They carry on
For their children
Bonus time
We buy them sweets
Or a saree
When all they need
Is the money
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I would like
To them empower
Give them skills
Making Xmas sweets
Snacks
Laddoos
Baby sitting
Nursing the old
Professional cleaning
At a decent wage
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A weekend off
Some insurance
Aren’t they also
Covered
By minimum wage
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By inflation
They’re hardest hit
But it’s we who complain
That money’s tight
We can’t give them
Another raise
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Many thoughts
But
All in the mind
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Can’t express
Out of fear
Of rehab
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My children now
They understand
My husband too
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But why still
There
The hesitation
The fear
Of rehab?
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I try to start
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Opposition
The stress
It will make you sick
You help I say
In the work
Take my stress
Make it yours
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I may not be able
To do what I plan
But there may not be
Emptiness
In my heart
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Till I think
Of something else
